November was White, December is Gray

It's December. That means 2009 is almost over and my mind has gone a-boggling by that fact.

Down to business; I think I'm slipping into a funk. I don't really know why. I just have all these things on my mind. Previous to this moment, I usually will think about something for a few hours then I'll get distracted by something (tv, movie, granny drivers etc.) and will no longer be affected by my thinking brain of thinkfulness.

I think the 1st of the new long-lasting thoughts is that I have to move in a little less than 2 months and I have no game plan. It's my own fault of course. I'm royal Duke of Procrastination. So I don't freequently have plans till the last minute, which I clearly now have a problem with.

A childhood friend of mine passed away a few days ago. I hadn't really spoken to him since before my Pokemon stage, well over a decade ago (wow, that makes me feel old). Anywho, I wasn't close to him but his death has flipped my thinking switch. I feel worried all the time now that anyone closer to me is gonna go. What would I do? I don't know that I am properly equipped to handle that situation. I'd probably quit and move back. I wouldn't have a job there though. How would I make money? I don't wanna work at...........You see? Thats how my brain is right now. I was not intending to write the last few sentences but one thought leads to the next which has a follow up thought and so on and so forth till I'm falling into a swirly vortex like in an old Alfred Hitchcock move. Alternative analogy-an unpleasant word web.

Anyway, those are just 2 examples of the concepts plaguing my countenence. If anyone finds the off switch don't wait for my ok. Switch it off then inform me. Thank you.

Koniciwa B*****s

I don't mean to be trite by starting this entry with a question but...

Do you ever feel out of place? Like you're not sure you're supposed to be where you currently can be located? I don't know if that makes sense. I will try to elaborate.

Pretend you're back in high school (just go with me on this for a sec). So you're in high school and you are...I dunno, for the sake of the example, lets say you're a jock. So you are a high school jock. You like sports. You're even pretty good at them, but you just to don't seem to fit with your fellow teammates. They curse every other word and think movies like 2 Fast 2 Furious and the Rundown should win awards for "Awsomeness" and consider Dwayne "The Rock" Johnson a great actor. And you are completely NOT about that.

You get invited to a party hosted by some kid in the drama club, who you get along with pretty well, and you figure, "maybe I'll get along with all those drama geeks", so you go to the party.

After hangin' with them for an hour or so, you stop and have some thinking time. You realize you might get along better with these guys, but you still don't really belong here. You have now been with two completely different sets of people and you still are out of place. What now?

Did you like the example? 'Course you did. But I just am curious.

What now?

Wishin' and Hopin'

Upon skimming Emily's Entertainment Weekly, I saw Stephan King's column about his hopes and wishes for 2009. I quickly absorbed Uncle Steve's desires for the new year and couldn't help but think of some of my own. So kudos, Mr. King, for getting me a-desiring for a good year. Here are my hopes and wishes for '09.

I hope Obama can fix the garbage dump of a situation our nation is in. If McCain won I'd hope for the same thing. It's a big task and I will put my hopes behind Obams that he is the right man for the job.

I wish that people would start seeing how freakin' incredible that "How I Met Your Mother" is. Neil Patrick Harris is getting some attention for his role, so I think that is a good start! It needs some serious Emmy love.

I hope I will stop making-out with inappropriate people. I have gained a lot of self control in the past year, which again is a good start! And I hope that I will date someone that IS appropriate.

I wish for a book to catch my fancy and make me want to read it in one night. I did love the vampire antics of Stephanie Meyer, but it's a new year. Time to move on.

I wish for another great season of LOST and a redemptive season of 24.

I hope for an Oscar for Heath Ledger as the Joker.

I hope with the entirety of my over-worked heart that I'll be trained in High School.

I wish for Harry Potter 6 to be amazing and not fall flat on it's face.

I hope that I can manage to become about...let's say 8 degrees happier a person. I think that will be my '09 main idea. "Be Happy"

I wish for the continuation of my "astounding" knowledge of obscure bands.

I hope that I will get to do a lot more Block Party. I know, everyone hates it, but I loves it.

I wish for more Diablo Cody writtings. New book, new column, new movie, new tv show. Whatever form she'd do, I'd take it.

And most of all I wish, by the end of the year, I will have some idea of what I want to do with my life.

So there are my new year desires. What are yours?

Best of '08

2008 was an intense year. And I say 'intense' because the sheer volume of change and insanity has whelmed me quite a bit. There has been highs and lows, good and bad. But no one likes to hear about the low and bad, so here are a few things that were great in '08.

Disney College Program

I got to spend seven months with job security, cheep rent, and my integrated Floridian fam, Chasten, Alysse, and Andrea.



"How I Met Your Mother"


This gives me hope that even and neurotic guy like me won't die alone.








"Ode to Divorce" by Regina Spektor

You can't put together a sentence that accuratly describe how brilliant she is.








Block Party Bash


For reals guys, if BPB was a drug, I'd have a hard time saying no.







Robyn

She is the new queen of techno/pop. Seriously, just give her a chance.







This little lady.



Stefanie Halsey. She is amazing. If you don't know her yet, you should probably fix that.





and last but not least

The Dark Knight

Christopher Nolan+Batman+Heath as Joker=Best movie ever









I hope you enjoyed my "best of" list. If you liked anything on my list, A+ for you. If not...you need to get better taste.

Sink, Florida, Sink

I'm home. In Utah I mean. I'm kinda done being the social outcast in the FL. Needed a break from it. So I'm in the UT.

Yesterday, was the longest day of traveling. Ever. Ever ever. The flight from Orlando to Denver went well enough. Then, an extended lay-over (5 hours) in CO due to unexpected technical difficulties, bascially exhausted every once of patience I had. Hoping to chilax when I get home, I arrive at a surprise party. Mostly family, which is great, but also alot of people I'm not really fond of. All in all it was a little overhelming. Fine, but overwhelming...slightly.

Anyway, it's kinda weird to be here. I look around and am reminded of memories that involved a version of me that no longer exists. I don't know that haunting is the right word, but...kinda.

The snow is nice thought. It wouldn't feel like the winter without it.

Miniture Disasters

My very first natural disaster is upon me. Hurricane Fey (I like the name cause it reminds me of Tina Fey, who is brilliant) has set its course for Orlando. I'm absolutely terrified. But nothing will stop Panda night. Anyway, I really have no idea what to expect. All I've ever had to deal with is pounds of snow. I mean back in Elementary we had "earthquake drills" but we never actually had one. Hopefully, I can get to color code then to Panda and back to my aunts before I start seeing flying cows.