It'd be true to say that not many people welcome change. At least not with open arms. They'd rather just stay in the same place. Even if they are miserable, at least its farmiliar. Having put myself through a year and a half long agnst-fest i finally decided something needed to change. I faced a certain sassy brunette needing to know where i stood with her once and for all.
When facing a problem/situation you always have the tendency, deep down, to get your hopes up. Your mind says, don't go there, not yet, but you do anyway. So then, when you get let down it's ten times worse cause you knew you should've listened.
I should've listened. However, when it came to this particular chica, I've always tended to over-estimate where i stand. Yet, her reasoning behind saying no to casey-love yet again, no matter how reasonable, still hurt like hell (not that i've experienced how that feels, but from what i gather it's not very enjoyable). Especially when she's dated some pretty scummy guys.
However, (expect many more) i got my answer. I needed something to change and it most definatly did. Sure not in my favor but it happened. Needless to say, i'm kinda going through a mental and emotional breakdown right now. So as apart of this change that has so suddendly occured i decided to shave my hair off. Yeah, it might sound a bit irrational (thats what my mom thought anyway) but it needed to happen. And now days later, I see the vixen that unintentionally cause all this psychological damage and she decides to put in her two cents about it? Really? YOU don't GET To judge how i decide to get rid of romantic feelings for you. You don't get to have an opinion or comment Miss 'i date guys who should go to juvy'. So all in all. I like my new doo. So crap on you
Wednesday, April 25, 2007
Tuesday, April 17, 2007
It was like Communism, everybody shared
I'm writting now to convey the wonders of friendship. Friends are interesting to me because i have very few but they are vastly different. I had some out of the ordinary interactions yesterday and..well just listen.
I started off the day with confronting a good friend of mine about something i'd heard she'd said about me...over text. Rule #1, if you can see how something could turn into a fight, do it in person. Not over text or Msn (even though i constantly disobey that) So now she is out of town for two weeks and I have that to hang over my head.
Next i talked with a friend from florida. This was not bad. It was very good in fact. I haven't talked to him over the phone in a while. Just saying, it was out of the ordinary. Rule #2, try not to lose touch
Following my performance art class i went to see an Improv Comedy Troupe called Thrillionaires. It was the hardest i'd laughed in a LONG time. There i met two friends who are going on missions and a friend who just got back from college in Idaho. If it was ever possible to say alot without really saying anything, it happened then. Thank heavens for the funny show as to have something to talk about. Rule # 3, Make friends with similar interests.
To close the night, ended up in Target's parking lot. Two friends from up north came down and we took skanky pictures till 11:45, (one of them had to get home). I hang out with them often, But when i woke up yesterday i didn't think i'd end the day by lying scanelously on a bench by a dept. store. Rule #4, find ways to blow off steam.
I realize that the fourth rule doesn't really have anything to do with friendship, it's just common sense.
I started off the day with confronting a good friend of mine about something i'd heard she'd said about me...over text. Rule #1, if you can see how something could turn into a fight, do it in person. Not over text or Msn (even though i constantly disobey that) So now she is out of town for two weeks and I have that to hang over my head.
Next i talked with a friend from florida. This was not bad. It was very good in fact. I haven't talked to him over the phone in a while. Just saying, it was out of the ordinary. Rule #2, try not to lose touch
Following my performance art class i went to see an Improv Comedy Troupe called Thrillionaires. It was the hardest i'd laughed in a LONG time. There i met two friends who are going on missions and a friend who just got back from college in Idaho. If it was ever possible to say alot without really saying anything, it happened then. Thank heavens for the funny show as to have something to talk about. Rule # 3, Make friends with similar interests.
To close the night, ended up in Target's parking lot. Two friends from up north came down and we took skanky pictures till 11:45, (one of them had to get home). I hang out with them often, But when i woke up yesterday i didn't think i'd end the day by lying scanelously on a bench by a dept. store. Rule #4, find ways to blow off steam.
I realize that the fourth rule doesn't really have anything to do with friendship, it's just common sense.
Sunday, April 15, 2007
Shaving in a Public Restroom
So at my job, i am always supposed to "look clean shaven". Well guess what!? Shaving myself takes quite some time. I don't really like to shave except for my upper lip (SO not a fan of the mexi-stache). So i hadn't shaved my cheeks (Face not ass) for almost two weeks. I have to make this fake trailer for one on my finals and I wanted to look older so i hadn't shaved. So sue me.
Too bad when i arrived at work Sat., with my scruffy appearance, the very pleasant people at Harmon's decided to declare that i was not to work untill i removed the "unsightly, hobo hair" from my face. Ok...what? Should i run home, shave, and come back to please their anal standards? Then one of my managers slipped away and returned with a razor and a can of shaving cream. Seriously?! They really expected me to shave in the nasty bathroom?
When you are shaving in a public restroom, you put yourself in a vulnerable position. You are there exposing your error in judgement to the passers by. But that is apart of life. You can try to get away with "unsightly, hobo hair" but eventually you are going to have to pay for the things you do wrong. Sometimes it might turn out that you are better for rectifying the mistakes, in fact most of the time you are. You learn the error of your ways and you better yourself. When you are shaving away your mistakes, there'll be snags and cuts. Marks that get left. But usually you'll find the best person has the most cuts on their chin. So be careful to look down on that young, slightly attractive guy shaving in the public restroom. He is fixing his mistake.
The question now is, what'll happen when someone comes to you with a razor and a can of shaving cream?
Too bad when i arrived at work Sat., with my scruffy appearance, the very pleasant people at Harmon's decided to declare that i was not to work untill i removed the "unsightly, hobo hair" from my face. Ok...what? Should i run home, shave, and come back to please their anal standards? Then one of my managers slipped away and returned with a razor and a can of shaving cream. Seriously?! They really expected me to shave in the nasty bathroom?
When you are shaving in a public restroom, you put yourself in a vulnerable position. You are there exposing your error in judgement to the passers by. But that is apart of life. You can try to get away with "unsightly, hobo hair" but eventually you are going to have to pay for the things you do wrong. Sometimes it might turn out that you are better for rectifying the mistakes, in fact most of the time you are. You learn the error of your ways and you better yourself. When you are shaving away your mistakes, there'll be snags and cuts. Marks that get left. But usually you'll find the best person has the most cuts on their chin. So be careful to look down on that young, slightly attractive guy shaving in the public restroom. He is fixing his mistake.
The question now is, what'll happen when someone comes to you with a razor and a can of shaving cream?
Friday, April 13, 2007
The Blogesphere
Knowing I'm in the Blodeshpere is an oddly unsetteling feeling. People being able to see what i read and write, while cool, also freaks me out. Its like I'm sitting on the toilet and i reach for some TP but i reach two inches from where it actually is. You see, being a child of security, there is someting about people getting to know me that i find a little terrifying.
It is something i need to start accepting however because i could miss out on some awesome things. I shouldn't be afraid to try new things or meet new people cause i could pass on something i might love. but how would i know if i won't try?
A few months back, i had my palm read. (I won't say by who, he knows who he is.) So after kind of a sad reading (i'm going to die a long, slow death. At least i'll have time to catch up on all my tv shows) he stops and asks if i'm an open person. Do i make trust people and do i let people in? He says he read that i'm not. Well guess what? that is pretty much 100% true. So i admit to the flaw. He told me i should let people in and have trust cause i'm gonna miss something i could love.
Very wise advise Nameless Palm Reader. So here i'm taking baby steps toward that goal. I'm now in the blogeshpere. This better not come back to bite me in the ass.
It is something i need to start accepting however because i could miss out on some awesome things. I shouldn't be afraid to try new things or meet new people cause i could pass on something i might love. but how would i know if i won't try?
A few months back, i had my palm read. (I won't say by who, he knows who he is.) So after kind of a sad reading (i'm going to die a long, slow death. At least i'll have time to catch up on all my tv shows) he stops and asks if i'm an open person. Do i make trust people and do i let people in? He says he read that i'm not. Well guess what? that is pretty much 100% true. So i admit to the flaw. He told me i should let people in and have trust cause i'm gonna miss something i could love.
Very wise advise Nameless Palm Reader. So here i'm taking baby steps toward that goal. I'm now in the blogeshpere. This better not come back to bite me in the ass.
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